What Gives Our Lives Juice

Each week when I sit down to write these Sunday Letters to you, before I begin, I pause to think about you, the person on the other side of the screen reading this.

I silently ask that my words be exactly what someone out there needs to hear. Maybe you. Maybe someone who needs an understanding smile, a listening ear or a laugh, a pat on the shoulder, maybe a hug.

It’s a kind of meditation I do in honor of the privilege of serving in such a way. It inspires me to give you the best that I can offer.

I confess that sometimes my best falls short of what I’d hoped I could produce. But you keep on reading week after week anyway. And gosh, that touches my heart. Along the way, I hope you’ve found a gem or two to carry in your pocket.

If you’re new to these letters, know that I welcome you joyously. To you, as well as to those who have been with me across the years, I vow to continue to give you my best, and to keep working to make my best even better.

Striving to be our best, after all, is what it’s all about—what these letters are about, what our lives are about. Reaching toward our highest vision of ourselves is what gives our lives juice.

My goal is to inspire you to keep reaching, to keep refining your vision, and to encourage you, when your highest ideals seem impossibly far off, to keep on keeping on.

The Celebration

Here on the verge of the holidays and the birth of a new year, I find myself remembering one of my long-time favorite quotes:

“The purpose of life is the celebration of it.”

I don’t know who said that. But it rings true for me because of the depth of the word ‘celebration.’

On one hand, it means to mark an event with festivities, to express our joy. In this sense of the word, it means the purpose of life is to be glad for it, to look for and appreciate its mystery and wonder, to savor its fullness and pleasures and delights.

On the other hand, ‘celebrate’ means to solemnize, to take something seriously and to hold it in reverence. In other words, don’t take life for granted. Give the mystery and wonder of your life its due. You’re only you once, and not for long. Take the reaching seriously, and delight in the journey.

Whatever holiday you may be celebrating this week, may it be filled with beauty and joy.

I’ll see you next week and we can peer into the New Year together. Sure feels like it will be a humdinger, doesn’t it? Don’t they all?

Whatever it brings, we’ll travel it together, reaching for our best, becoming more and more the selves we always wanted to be.

Thank you for joining me on the journey.

Warmly,
Susan

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Tradition’s Gifts

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Come pull a chair by the fire and let’s drink a toast to the holidays. I’ve set out a virtual plate of my fanciest cakes and cookies and some nuts and cheeses and fruit for you. Help yourself!

See the intricate hand made ornaments in this crystal bowl? They come with a story. I love their sparkle and glow. They mesmerize me and send me back in time to the days when my mother made them, stacking sequins and crystal beads on tiny pins that she pressed into Styrofoam forms, arranging the brocade and satin ribbons just so

It was tedious work, especially since she had limited control of her hands. But when her ALS-like disease forced her to retire, she vowed to do at least one creative act every day for as long as she was able. And that particular year, she made these precious ornaments for our Christmas tree.

They’re among my most cherished possessions, and every year they pull me into Christmases Past, where I open a treasure chest of special memories.

I was thinking last night about how much this annual ritual means to me, how it connects me to past generations and gives me a deepened sense of who I am, where I came from.

Holiday celebrations are much different now than they were when I was a small child. The world has become a different place. It moves at a different speed. It seems storm-tossed now, its people searching for something sure to which they can cling in the midst of life’s turbulent seas.

As I lifted the sequined bulbs from their tissue paper wrappings this year, I realized that this annual tradition secures me to my past, to my ancestors, my heritage.

Then I came across the strands of red and silver and gold glass beads that I’ll drape around the beautiful green glass jug that we bought on a family vacation one year as we traveled through rural New Hampshire. That was over half a century ago, and the beads have graced the jug every year since.

That’s the value of tradition. It provides a link to the past. It speaks to our connection to what has gone before, even if the meanings attached to it have transformed over the years.

We light the candles or put up the tree or sing the songs from ages past not because the act embodies the same beliefs, but because, in connecting us to our past, the act reminds us of the lives and cultures from which our traditions arose.

We recall the old stories. We think about the struggles and hardships that had to be lived to bring us to where we are right now. We think about the courage and determination it took to endure them. We think about the values and the love that made the struggles worthwhile.

And even if we don’t think about them, the performance of the traditions in and of itself quickens them in our hearts and has a meaning that our hearts understand.

I hope you have some little token of past holidays that speaks to you of days gone by. I hope you have something that you’ll pass on to your children, or a special memory to share with a close friend or two.

If not, find one, find a token that can hold the memory of this holiday for you, a bauble of some kind, a word that you write on a piece of paper. Hold it in your hand and make a heartfelt wish—perhaps for peace, perhaps for greater joy or faith, perhaps for comfort, for forgiveness and healing—whatever you want the holiday to mean for you. Then, when the holiday season is past, wrap your token in paper, write the date on it, and put it away to discover next year.

That’s how traditions begin. With hope and reverence. And that is what they carry forward.

Wishing you fond holiday memories and a heart full of hope and joy.

Warmly,
Susan

New Snow

It’s one thing to remember it as a fact: “Winter can be wondrous.”

But immediately my crabby inner voice counters with “Yeah, yeah, and bitter cold, too, and a nuisance. Not my favorite. ” And just like that, I think away “wondrous,” burying it beneath winter’s more tangible features as shivers run down my arms.

Then one day snowflakes the size of dimes begin to fall and they keep on falling until the ground and every twig on every tree is covered with them. And the kid in me makes me put on my boots and jacket and climb the hill to get a look at the scene from within it.

And I realize that “wondrous” is breathing all around me.

Tree Dreams

I gaze out the door at the trees,
bare now, atop the southern hill.
I remember all over again
how much I love these winter trees,
how they never fail to speak
to something inside me that relates
to them somehow, at least as neighbor.
I listen to them this windless day
as they gather, it seems, in council,
perhaps to share their dreams.
I wonder if I am in their dreams
(that woman down there
who sings to the morning birds)
the way that they’re in mine.

The Good Old Same Old Same Old

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What was, isn’t. What is, won’t be.
But always, there’s the now. Right in front of our noses. Full of everything and always a different shape than it was before or soon will be.

And most of the time we don’t even notice, being all caught up in our stories and calculations and all. Anyway . . .

Hello! I send you smiles today!

This time of year, I spend a lot of time working in my studio, a cozy second story room, with a window that overlooks the wooded western hill.

I like the view and it’s comfortable.

Every time I look up from my laptop’s screen, the walls and furniture, the plants and lamps and paintings are exactly where they were before.

The only thing that seems to have changed is me. And it wasn’t, I can tell you, much of a change.

Maybe I wasn’t jiggling my toes before. My thoughts were different. The furnace’s fan has kicked on. Other than that, it’s the same old same old.

It could seem like a pretty boring place, I suppose.

But that’s only the case if you forget that all the walls have another side. One of them even has an outside, and that’s a doggone huge place. You can’t even get to the end of it, it goes so far.

And just down the road a piece, there’s mountains and deserts and forests and oceans, and all of them with their own inhabitants, every one of them as real as you and me and alive in this very same now. And some of them are humans.

And for all you know, a particular human you’re thinking about right now might be thinking of you, too. Maybe because they felt your thoughts in some subliminal electromagnetic way. Or you felt them.

And once you start thinking about another human being, you can drift off into all kinds of imaginary conversations and memories and dreams.

So what difference does it make if the walls don’t seem to change? A patch of relative sameness is a good thing. It can give you a sense of stability, something to hang on to when fierce winds blow.

Be grateful for the slow-to-change, for the ordinary and familiar. Someday you could be amazed that you ever took it for granted.

Rest in that. And from there, watch, and let life flow.

Remember that what was, isn’t. And what is, won’t be.
But there is always now, dancing, and it goes on and on and on.

As you go into the holidays, may the dance bring you moments that glow with peace and shimmer with joy.

Warmly,
Susan

Tree House Musings – This Holy Time

12/06/24
5:10 pm

The gray of the overcast twilight sky is subtly tinted pink and the snow on the hillside reflects it. The scene touches me somehow and reminds me that this is a holy time. I feel the energy of it: Love. Nostalgia. Hope. Suspense.

Ribbons of light stream past on the highway below as people drive home from work, anticipating the evening ahead.

The kid in me gets excited at the sight of the red and yellow lights that line the roof of a semi’s big trailer as it climbs the western hill and disappears around the curve that heads down into town.

This childlike delight is a part of the season, too.

Think of the face of a three-year-old gazing at the Christmas lights, at lacy flakes of falling snow. Such wonder!

Musings from My Winter Tree House

Introduction

I’m hibernating. In spurts. None of them as long as I’d like.

It’s winter, the time for turning inward, living on the stored, nutritious fat I gathered over the summer. Examining it, this thick, luxuriant heap of experiences, seeing what contributions each made to my being.

I am declaring myself an Elder now and claiming all the rights and privileges of that status.

I give myself permission to do whatever I want.

I’m finding this current segment of my journey to be the most intriguing one so far, despite the fact I’m well experienced in multi-faceted endeavors. – Once I designed a business card that described me as an “Adept Generalist.” I have sometimes gone by the handle “Susan Manyhats.” – But this time “multi-faceted” doesn’t touch it. Everything’s layers deep now and convoluted and whizzing past at breakneck speed.

Nevertheless, it is winter. Whether the calendar says so or not. And I am curled in a warm room, gazing out my window, letting my mind wander, making up stories about what I hear and see. I decided I’ll share snippets of my dreams and musings. And this is that project’s start.

I don’t know what it will become. It may disappear with the dawn.

But here it is, for now, a record of the dreams I entertain as I gaze from my tree house window.

* * *

An Excerpt from my Journal

12/05/24
10:55 am

Don’t give up hope, I tell myself. The 250th birthday of the USA happens in ’26. Celebrations are being planned in detail even now. Players are moving into place.

It could turn out to be a reclaiming of the true virtues of humanity – a new Renaissance! How splendid would that be!

It’s possible, I suppose, despite the odds. And a girl’s allowed to dream.

All that we need is a great sweeping away of the falsehoods and delusions.

That’s all.

Everything depends on how that unfolds.
Literally. Everything.

It’s all or nothing.
And there’s no predicting which way it will go.

What an astonishing time to be here as a witness!

Interlude

When I turned on the plant light for the grandmother spider plant in the eastern corner of the living room, an impulse to play Christmas carols on the keyboard arose, and I obeyed it, and it was wonderful. I hadn’t played so much as a single tune in months. I decide that I’m going to have to do it more often.

The carols carried me back across decades, acting as the soundtrack of a movie of Christmases past, each one precious and touching. It’s a truly powerful time. And inescapable. Whole new dimensions of reality emerge; previously unnoticed veils float away. The imagined becomes real, and things you never even dreamed manifest as well.

“The Thing Itself”

11:30 am Bannon’s on. I’ll catch this last half hour. He’s going to discuss where he thinks we are and what we need to do between now and Jan 21.

“This is the main event,” he says. “This is the thing itself.”

Yes. My thoughts exactly.

Bedtime Story

On this day of the first December ice,
I quietly whisper my final farewell
to autumn, and admit that winter’s
begun to sneak in. As we put the year
to bed, we ought, I think, send it off
to dream wondrous dreams
by telling it a fine story. Perhaps
a story about a little pine tree
and his adventures preparing
for the great Festival of Light.
Yes. A fine year-end story indeed.

(Stay tuned!)

Letting Go

Now is the season of letting go,
of releasing unto time’s stream
all that is lifeless and brittle,
all that no longer serves.

Loose the stained leaves from your story,
the pages of blaming and grudges,
the images of sorrow and regret.
They are but dreams, you know.

Let them go. It’s as easy as waking.
Let them ride the winds like phantoms
into yesterday and fade into her depths.
Fresh tomorrows wait to fill their spaces.
The globe will soon tilt toward the light,
and possibilities will shimmer around us
like snowflakes on a winter morning.

Revelation

It could just drop right out of the blue,
a revelation you never expected,
one thin, bright shaft of truth
that makes everything clear
once and for all.
You never know.
Pay attention.