Category: A Joy-Warrior’s Journey

I Dare You

Sometimes when people are looking for inspiration, they walk over to their book shelves, pick a book, open it to a random page, then, without looking, let an outstretched finger drop somewhere on the page. They say they are often surprised at how perfectly the sentences they find that way fit their question or situation.

When I’m looking for inspiration, I sometimes use a high-tech variation of that method. I open the quotes folder on my computer, shut my eyes, swirl my mouse and open whatever topic it lands on. This week, it parked on “Daring.” It was exactly what I wanted, something a little bit, oh, invigorating.

I opened the file, and read the first quote on the page:

“Valor grows by daring, fear by holding back.” ~Publilius Syrus  

“Valor!” I said out loud. The word surprised me. It was a word I rarely use, but one that sparked an instant impulse to stand taller, to ready myself for whatever might come my way. I decided to look up ‘valor’ in the thesaurus and I found a whole parade of stalwart words:

Boldness. . . Courage. . . Derring-Do. . . Determination. . .

Don’t they make you feel bigger somehow? A little more adventurous and brave? And there were more!

Fearlessness. . . Firmness. . . Fortitude. . . Gallantry . . .

Grit. . . Heroism. . . Prowess. . . Tenacity

Yeah. Bring it on.

I went back to read the quote again. Be daring, he said. Holding back only grows your fear.

We have a lot of fear in our lives these days, a lot of anxiety and worry. His words are wise. Daring gets us into action. Taking action puts us back in control.

I read more of the quotes on the page:

“Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. To keep our faces toward change and behave like free spirits in the presence of fate is strength undefeatable.” ~Helen Keller
  

Ah, Helen Keller. This quote from her has long been one of my favorites. If ever there was a courageous woman, it was she.

“Think about how audacious it is to really believe in yourself.”  ~ Debbie Ford

“A single feat of daring can alter the whole conception of what is possible.”  ~Graham Greene

“Daring greatly means the courage to be vulnerable. It means to show up and be seen. To ask for what you need. To talk about how you’re feeling. To have the hard conversations.” ~Brene Brown

This was good stuff. It was giving me exactly the inspiration that I needed. Let me share some of my take-aways:


Dare to have
. . . the courage to speak your truth;
. . . the courage to say Yes;
. . . the courage to say No.

Dare to love your life.

Dare to begin.

Dare actually to like that someone.

Dare to be kind.

Dare to do it better.

Dare to cry.

Dare to laugh.

Dare to reach out.

Dare to offer help.

Dare to ask for it.

Dare to swim against the tide.

Let me give you a few last quotes.

“Success is loving life and daring to live it.” ~Maya Angelou

“It’s daring to be curious about the unknown, to dream big dreams, to live outside prescribed boxes, to take risks, and above all, daring to investigate the way we live until we discover the deepest treasured purpose of why we are here.” ~Luci Swindoll

“Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends.” ~Aberjhani

“Rise up, start fresh, see the bright opportunity in each new day.” ~Anonymous

Dare to love your life, my friend.
Dare to expect the day to bring gifts.
Dare to keep going.

From my heart,
Susan

PS You can find all these quotes and more at: Wise Old Sayings, a fabulous site for us quote-ophiles. https://www.wiseoldsayings.com/daring-quotes/#ixzz6YJwdh0Pg

Living in Shock

On a video I watched this week the host was telling a story. It was about a man who had undergone the trauma of having his home destroyed in a fire. Three months had passed and he was in a new place. But it didn’t feel like home. And he kept remembering things he had lost. Lately, he had been misplacing things and getting distracted, forgetting what he intended to do. Time seemed strange. Sometimes whole hours were gone in a blink. Sometimes ten minutes lasted forever. He was moody, wavering between a tedious depression and itchy annoyance. It bothered him so much that he finally went to see a counselor.

“Well, Dave,” she said to him gently, “You have been living in a state of shock for three months. It takes time to get your bearings when your whole world has changed. You’re okay.”

The host said when he heard that story, it occurred to him that all of us have been living in a state of shock this year. The place doesn’t quite feel like home. And from time to time, we start thinking about all we have lost. Not only material things. Relationships. Beliefs. Whole ways of life.

You can get lost yourself, thinking about it. You can fall into a well of grief. And that’s okay. Loss hurts. It’s healing to grieve. It shows you how much you valued what you had, even if you never thought much about it. But don’t dwell in grief. You are still alive, for better or worse, and more experiences await you. And isn’t that what you’re doing here? Experiencing life in all of its textures and layers?

Somewhere this week I read this: “I always succeed. Either I win or I learn.” It’s a worthwhile attitude. Sure, sometimes the learning is painful. Sometimes the path is rough. But every moment of it is yours and enlarges you.

Another interesting item I ran across this week was the statement that your chances of being born were one in four trillion. I have no idea how that number was determined. But suppose it’s true, considering all the factors involved. Your being here is phenomenal!

And if you’re wandering around feeling distracted by the drastic changes in our world, it’s okay. These moments are yours, too. A whole lot of us, worldwide, are feeling the turbulence of the times. Life has become a seemingly unending series of shocks. Just take a breath, and realize there is vast beauty here, too, and kindness, and moments of laughter and joy. And above all, keep believing in happy endings, in the faith that, truly, the best is yet to come.

Warmly,
Susan

The Choice

A few years ago, my friend and I were busily working on a project together. We had been silent for several minutes, each of us concentrating on the work at hand, when she said, “Just think, in a little while this will all be a dream.”

That’s what Right Now does. It slides away into the dream world of memory.

I haven’t seen my friend in a while; she lives a couple states away. But I’m on my way to visit her, happily looking forward to seeing her garden and the chickens she got last spring when they were just fuzzy little peeps. Images of her face float through my mind, and the sound of her laughter—a delicious,musical giggle—plays like a soundtrack as I anticipate the visit.

Right Now holds dreams of tomorrows, too.

But there’s one thing Right Now has on our dreams of the future and of the past. It’s the only place where we can make choices and where we can act. Neale Donald Walsh has this to say about Right Now: “You are, always and forever, in the moment of pure creation. So create who and what you are, and then experience that.”

We can live in the stories about ourselves that we built in the past, or we can choose to frame who we are differently. We can be stronger, and wiser, and kinder, and funnier. Even if we don’t know how; we can pretend and act “as if.” We can decide to adopt an attitude of hope, or of forgiveness, or lightheartedness, or compassion. We can speak or be silent, watch reruns on TV or to go for a walk and see what the sky is doing. We can ask for help, or offer it, call a friend or make a new one. We can nap or we can play or do the work at hand with all the clarity we can muster. Right Now, we can be any way that we want to be. Because Walsh is right. This Now is a moment of creation.

Sometimes, if you just stop for a bit and look around you, you can let wonder flow in, the kind that you felt when you were a small child and everything was fresh and new. You can say, “Wow. Here I am, being human!” And then decide what sort of human you’d like to be Right Now. Awake? Dreamy? Energized? Amused? Brave? Patient? Grateful? Friendly? Hungry? We can imagine that we have the answers and choose to move in the direction that our truest inner self directs.

How do I want to be Right Now? That’s the central question. You always and forever have the choice. And then you get to experience the result, to try it on and see how it feels in the very next Right Now—which is always and forever happening. You can choose to do more of what you did or to try something new.

Some choices take work, and some take a bit of luck. Personally, I have a loose sort of rule to try anything at least twice. I figure if something didn’t work out the first time, maybe it deserves another try. Factors may have been at work that I’m not aware of. If I’m sad, for instance, and decide I’d like to be happier, I’ll put on a smile. If it doesn’t work, I’ll try it again. Sometimes I’ll even go for three times because I’ve heard that “the third time is a charm.” You can make up your own rules. That’s part of choosing.

The key is to remember that you always have a choice. Right Now truly is your moment of creation. It comes with being human. It’s part of the gift.

Right Now, I choose to send you love. Right Now, I choose to stand in joy. Join me?

Warmly,
Susan

Watching the Movies

The other day I realized that one of the things that has helped me keep my commitment to being a joy-warrior is my daily practice of meditation. I’d like to share a little bit about my journey with it today.

Off and on, I’ve been practicing it now for, oh, about 50 years. I had to experiment with many different styles of meditation before I discovered what works best for me. Along the way, I found a common thread. Now I think that meditation is sort of like going to the movies.

You settle into your seat and relax, ready to let go of everything for a while. You take a nice, slow breath and let yourself focus on a blank screen in your mind as the world around you fades away. Depending on the style of meditation you’ve chosen, you project your attention to one single thing. Maybe a colored geometric shape of some kind appears on the screen. Maybe you listen to a word or phrase or prayer repeating in different rhythms and volumes. Maybe you simply feel the movement of your breath, or if you’re doing a moving meditation, the way your body feels. You hold your attention on it. And after awhile, everything, even the object of your attention, gently dissolves.

The next thing you know, you find yourself all wrapped up in the scene of some inner movie, absorbed by its drama, your emotions engaged, your mind eager to see the next turn of the plot.

Then you remember. Part of you wants to keep watching the movie, to see where it goes. But a deeper part feels the call of your intention, and you take a slow, deep breath and let the movie fade as you focus once again on your chosen object of attention.

Sometimes a whole stream of little movies will play, especially if you’re stressed. But you keep remembering and beginning again. When you’re new at this, it’s easy to misjudge sessions like this, to label them as unsuccessful in some way.

They’re not. The movies are just mind-knots untangling, smoothing out the pathways in your neural networks so that peace can flow through. They play less frequently over time and get shorter before the remembering happens. It’s a matter of training. That’s why it’s called a practice.

If you’re an active person who likes always to be doing, meditation can seem like a waste of time. But the knot-untangling it does will allow you to do whatever else you do with greater clarity, effectiveness, and ease. Meditation allows you to experience a kind of inner spaciousness, and when you reconnect with your normal outer world, you engage with it more fully, with a more centered and authentic view.

If you’re a sedentary type, meditation will provide you with new insights about yourself and give you greater freedom to think more deeply. It will awaken you to the beauty of the ordinary, and provide you with new and more creative choices about how to spend your time.

If you’re already a meditator, keep on! If you’re not, trade in 15-20 minutes of squandered time to start. (Even you have 15 minutes of squandered time, you know.) The internet is full of how-to instructions. Feel free to disregard any attached philosophies or religions if they don’t appeal to you. It’s an ancient art. It’s picked up a lot of baggage along the way. Simply pay attention to the what-to-do, not the why, of it. I’ve already given you the gist of it, but instruction can certainly help.

In our tumultuous world, it’s a practice that provides you with a refuge, a rich and beneficial retreat. It’s healing. It strengthens you. It teaches you patience and presence. And it gives you a realigned perspective, allowing you to see a broader, more accepting, more far-reaching view of things.

For me, it’s a primary means of finding the light of true joy. And despite all the fits and starts as I learned it–through practice–I am deeply grateful that it has become an integral part of my life.

Warmly,
Susan

Links in the Peace Chain

One day this week when I was thinking about all the misery and conflict that ceaselessly rains down on us, suddenly a memory popped into my mind that made me explode with a huge laugh. I pictured the scene clear as day. I was with a group of friends and one of them asked Henry what he would say to people if he was king of the world.

He thought for a moment, got a ferocious look on his face, puffed himself up, took in a giant breath, and bellowed at the top of his lungs, “STOP IT!”

I think we could use a King Henry today! We’ve all had about enough of this fear-filled, monotonous, rancorous routine.

Later, I ran across a much softer and more gentle piece of advice for affording ourselves relief from the oppressiveness of the times. It was an article on practicing loving-kindness meditation.

As I contemplated it, I thought about the idea that our realities, both personal and universal, rise from our thoughts. How we think about ourselves, the people in our lives and all the others in the world determines how we’ll behave toward them, how we’ll see them, how we’ll react to what they do. Collectively, our thoughts shape the world.

Mark Twain thought about this, too. Once he wondered, “What would happen if all the people in the world laughed at the same time?” Think about a time when laughter spread in sudden contagion through a room you were in. Nobody knew what so funny, but they couldn’t help but laugh because, well, it was just so hilarious to see everybody unable to stop.

I thought about the hundred monkeys story, where one day a monkey on an island starting washing his food in the sea before he ate it. The other monkeys copied him, and when the hundredth monkey joined it, the practice suddenly erupted on a far-away island, too.

What if practicing loving-kindness meditation worked like that? What if, by taking 10 or so minutes a day to send loving wishes to ourselves and each other, we became a link in a chain of loving-kindness that spread peace and joy all over the world?

It’s easy enough to do. I’ll show you in a minute. But first, here’s what loving-kindness means. It comes from a Pali word metta. Its meaning embraces the concepts of friendliness, goodwill, benevolence, fellowship, inoffensiveness and non-violence as well. In an article titled, “Metta: The Philosophy and Practice of Universal Love,” Acharya Buddharakkhita says, “True metta is devoid of self-interest. It evokes within a warm-hearted feeling of fellowship, sympathy and love, which grows boundless with practice and overcomes all social, religious, racial, political and economic barriers. Metta is indeed a universal, unselfish and all-embracing love.”

Sounds pretty powerful doesn’t it?

The process itself is simple. As with any meditation, you begin by relaxing in a comfortable position, with eyes closed, in a place where you can be undisturbed. Then, putting a gentle smile on your face, let go of any negative thought or feeling. Begin by saying to yourself,

May I be safe from danger; 
May I be healthy;
May I be happy;
May I live with ease.

Just breathe for awhile and sincerely wish yourself these blessings, repeating them until you feel satisfied.

Next practice sending your wishes for safety, health, happiness and ease to your circle of loved ones, imagining each of them one at a time and speaking your wishes to him or her directly in your mind.

The next stage is to move on to those people whom you know casually—neighbors, coworkers, acquaintances, members of your community.

And finally, you send your well-wishes to everyone, everywhere, as sincerely as you can.

In the article I read this week, the author suggested writing the words instead of silently repeating them. Writing, she said, can can instill them in our subconscious in a way that seems more effective than simply reading, hearing, or speaking them does.

Try whatever way appeals more to you.

Personally, I find the practice very soothing. It’s a way to stop the world’s madness from infiltrating your thoughts for a while. And with continued practice you’ll find your world truly does become a more peaceful, happier, friendlier place.

And who know what might happen if enough of us send wishes for well-being to ourselves and each other?

Certainly, it’s worth a try.

Warmly,
Susan

Reclaiming the Light

When I first committed to being a joy-warrior, an image appeared in my mind of a glowing golden light that looked as if it was pouring through an open doorway, its light making a long, equally glowing path from where I stood to the distant doorway. Along the dark structures rose of various sizes and shapes, casting their shadows on the path. To me, it represented both the goal and the challenges I would face in reaching it.

Like many of us, I’ve been experiencing this time we find ourselves in as one of the shadowed parts of the path. And the shadow sometimes feels very dark and long. We persevere, but we get weary and discouragement nibbles away at our resolve. All the contention and anger, the disruptions, suffering and uncertainty take their toll.

I was standing in a pool of gloom myself today when I ran across a quote from Dalai Lama XIV that somebody posted on Twitter. “ Choose to be optimistic,” he said. “It feels better.”

“Oh!” some little voice in my head responded. “That’s right!” Feeling better was exactly what I wanted. I was getting pretty tired of gloom. And what a poke his sentence was! It reminded me that optimism was a choice. Hope was mine for the choosing.

Choosing to find the good in any circumstance is one of the disciplines a joy-warrior works to master. And optimism is just that–a discipline. You need to train for it, and to practice it. Otherwise, the shadows will stop you in your tracks and eat your heart.

 I opened my joy-journal and found some notes I made the last few times I battled the shadows. The first one I found was a reminder of the reasons for adopting an optimistic view: less stress, greater self respect and integrity, better coping skills, better health, more patience, increased proactivity, more effective problem solving, enhanced peace of mind, increased gratitude and forgiveness.

Yes! That sounded good to me. I turned a few more pages and found “Tips for Reclaiming the Light.” It was a list of familiar practices that I had cast aside while stumbling in the shadows.

The first one was a little list under the heading “Mindfulness.” It started with a simple instruction. “Be Here Now. Focus on being intensely aware of what you’re sensing and feeling in the moment, without interpretation or judgment.” Under that, it said, “Pay attention to your senses. What are you seeing? Hearing? Smelling? Feeling? Tasting?”

I remembered the peace and gentle happiness I felt last Tuesday as I sat on the porch at night, listening intently, with closed eyes, to all the sounds I could hear, and how I became aware of the subtle changes in temperature. I remembered the little thrill of joy as I opened my eyes and saw the stars above me. Such a simple act, and yet what beautiful rewards!

The next line said, “Walk. Slowly. Pay attention to your posture, to the movement of your muscles and bones.” This is a good one. You can do it out in nature or, if it’s raining, right in your kitchen or living room. It breaks the chain of stories you’ve been telling yourself and conquers your racing thoughts.

The last line said, “Breathe.” You just sit down, close your eyes, take a deep breath and then pay attention as your breath flows in and out. It’s very calming and refreshing, and if you do it for a little while, bringing your attention back to your breath when you notice that thoughts have intruded, you come away from it feeling wide awake and aware.

Those were enough to get me on the right track again, out of the weight of the shadows, into the light.

But I flipped through a couple more pages anyway. “Name three things that you enjoyed today,” one said. That’s something I do every night writing them down in a gratitude journal I keep. It’s a nice way to end the day and sends you to sleep with greater peace.

 “Be your own beloved friend. Just as you are.” When I remember to do that, to accept myself, with all my warts and imperfections, the way I accept my dearly loved friends, it dissolves whatever hardness and self-blame I’ve been holding, turning them into self-compassion.

I was just going to put my journal away, grateful for the reminders, when a folded slip of paper fell out. On it, I found a beautiful observation I’d saved, authored by historian Howard Zinn. I’ll leave you with it’s wise perspective and wish you a week of light and peace.

 ““TO BE HOPEFUL in bad times is not just foolishly romantic. It is based on the fact that human history is a history not only of cruelty, but also of compassion, sacrifice, courage, kindness.

What we choose to emphasize in this complex history will determine our lives. If we see only the worst, it destroys our capacity to do something. If we remember those times and places—and there are so many—where people have behaved magnificently, this gives us the energy to act, and at least the possibility of sending this spinning top of a world in a different direction.

And if we do act, in however small a way, we don’t have to wait for some grand utopian future. The future is an infinite succession of presents, and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory.”

 Much warmth,
Susan

 

The Elements of Joy

Once a week, three friends and I gather from our various corners of the globe for a chat. We’ve been doing this for 11 years now. Until a couple weeks ago, we talked on the phone. But now we have moved into the Zoom sphere and we meet online, where we can see each other’s faces and show each other things in our environments.

Last week, Patricia showed us the beginnings of her new wool sculpture. You build a frame with wire and wrap wool around it in layers. That’s the essence of it. But the description doesn’t begin to hint at the beauty of the finished product. This is Patricia’s third wool sculpture, and this one is a dancer. We can hardly wait to see the final result.

Anyway, Patricia was talking about her experience in working with this latest piece. She’s learning more sophisticated techniques now, so the work is just above her skill level.

“That’s the perfect place to be to slip into the flow state,” I said. It’s that state of mind you’re in when you’re focused on something intently, paying close attention because it’s just a little bit of a reach. You know you can do it, and it’s kind of exciting to try to get it just right. Then you move on to the next step, and the next one. And before you know it, two hours have slipped by, totally unnoticed. That’s the flow state. You’re doing something just to do it, for the challenge of it. You don’t think about the final result. You might let your ideas about how you want it to turn out guide you. But the result comes later. It’s the doing itself that has your attention. The result just happens as a result.

You don’t feel a lot of emotion when you’re in a flow state. But when you come out of it, you feel a boost, a realization that you’ve been in special place, that you’re invigorated and satisfied at the same time.

You can create a state of flow for yourself any time you want. Whatever you’re doing, even if it’s a routine task, see if you can do better than you’ve ever done before. Do it faster, or more efficiently, or give more attention to the tiny details of it. Pay attention to what you’re doing. Notice things about it that you never noticed before.

Flow is a big part of a key element of well-being, or “flourishing” as the positive psych guys call it. The label it “engagement.” It implies a high interest in the matter at hand, a total involvement with it.

The other elements of flourishing are positive emotions, relationships, meaning, and achievement. They weave together in unique and wonderful ways. One component may far outweigh the others in some people’s lives. Others find they have a fairly balanced mix of all five in their lives. The emphasis varies from person to person. But all of us draw on at least a couple of the components to experience the fullness of life, and we experience all five of them at one time or another.

All of us taste at least some of the positive emotions: Joy, gratitude, serenity, interest, hope, pride, amusement, inspiration, awe, love. They add to life’s zest and heighten our appreciation of its beauty.

Most of us are blessed to have worthwhile relationships in our lives, or to have had them at one time or another.   And all it takes is one to know how valuable they are.

Most of us find something that gives us a sense of meaning or purpose, even though the search can be a daunting one if you’re trying to reach for something profound. But meaning doesn’t have to be a deep, cosmic revelation. One study I read said people found meaning in little, close-to-home kinds of things, like enjoying lunch with a friend. For me, meaning is in everything that says Yes to life.

Finally, there’s accomplishment. It’s means the kind of fulfillment or satisfaction or worthy pride you feel when you did something you set out for yourself to do. Maybe it’s sticking in there until you find a job, or earn your degree, or even get out of bed in the morning because you challenged yourself to do it. Recognizing our accomplishments empowers us. It gives us a sense of “I can.”

There’s an acronym to remember the five elements of flourishing, in case you should ever want to consider them, just for the fun of it. You can do a little inventory as you go through your day and notice which of them are in play. The acronym is PERMA, made from the first letters of each element:

P – Positive Emotions

E – Engagement

R – Relationships

M – Meaning

A – Accomplishments

Which one will be adding to your life today? Hmmm?

Me? I’m going to grab my camera and get engaged in a photo-hunt. It’s one of my favorite things.

I’ll be wishing you a week where engagement grabs you, too, and catches you right up in its flow.

Warmly, Susan

A Higher View

Looking down on the creek from the bridge, you can see so much more than when you stand on its banks, peering through the tangle of weeds and trees.

You can watch the water flow from far upstream, skirt the little island, dance around the rocks or bubble over them. You can see its shallows and its depths and understand how both are a part of it all, and how the creek and the rocks and the trees are all a part of some great conversation that includes it all.

You can watch the water flow downstream, wiser with every meter, richer with stories than it ever was before.

It’s sort of like us.

What often looks so narrow and tangled becomes so beautiful and whole when you take a higher view.

Dreaming of Eden

“If there’s a bustle in your hedgerow, don’t be alarmed now,
It’s just a Spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There’s still time to change the road you’re on.”

~Led Zeppelin, Stairway to Heaven lyrics

Somewhere, deep in our molecular makeup, we hold a concept of a perfect world.

We have an intuition that in a dimension we can’t quite identify, everything is beautiful and pleasing, and every sentient being is entirely free of suffering and delusion and overflowing with joy. We might not believe it is a real place. But still, we love to imagine it.

And when we do imagine it, we can’t help but want that place to be here, and we ask why it couldn’t be and what would we have to do to bring it here, to transform this into that.

Some folks get to being creative, inspired by the concept of moving toward that ideal, that Paradise thing. They invent things and methods to contribute to joy and ease, to enhance and enrich life in some way.

Some folks, unfortunately, get mad that Paradise isn’t here and find other folks to blame that on, and then the whole big drama of human history unfolds. Maybe it’s matter of living on this binary holodeck called Earth, where everyone inevitably gets damaged to some extent, because there’s no such thing here as perfection.

Nevertheless, even here, you get to choose whether you’ll live in darkness or in light. It’s a moment-to-moment choice. And being a joy warrior means being aware that the choice exists, always.

The choice for joy may seem like an impossibility when you’re in a pit of despair. But you’re never irreversibly stuck. The fact that we struggle so hard to climb out of the pits into which we fall is proof of that.

Things change. That’s another feature of life on Earth. I own a little rock that has the word “Change” engraved in it sitting on my window sill. It reminds me that life is in constant flow. My task as a joy warrior is to learn to steer my thoughts and actions in a way that lets me ride the best currents I can find.

Later on in this series, I’ll talk about the enemies of joy I’ve encountered and share some of the tools I found that let me banish them, or at least to cut them down to size. For now, let me assure you that hope is always available to you, however dim and far away it may look from your current perspective.

Hold on to hope. Darkness is never complete, and it can be conquered by one little glimmer of light.