The wild raspberry blossoms are opening now, great vines of them cascading in long arches down the hill, secrets hidden inside, secrets that will turn them into tart, sweet, juicy red globes. The birds and I keep eager watch, singing our chant to bring the magic on. Oh, bring them, little blossoms. Bring them. Bring them. Bring them.
This is spring. This is the lush wet green of her, pouring from every branch, rising from every inch of soil, gushing into the fast-flowing waters, licking every dancing molecule with her song. This is exuberance set free, leaping with life, drenching every form in hues of jade and lime, every leaf, every blade, the currents of water and air. All of it Yes, uncontained, all of it utterly spring.
Trilling one final grace note, a gift of welcoming for summer, a gift of appreciation for all who love her so, spring sings her farewell, gliding westward to ride the sun over the horizon. Behind her, a trail of flowers, delicate, bold, spicy and sweet, colors the sky, and we watch until stars and fireflies rise, our hearts filled with gratitude for all sweet spring bestowed.
Sometimes, Daddy, when I walk in the deep woods, I remember the time you drove Mom and me up to your hunting cabin, a little wooden shack you shared with Mike and Okie every winter when you went to hunt for deer. I was five. The cabin, you said, was near Rose City, a name that created wondrous images in my young mind. It turned out there were no roses there. But there was a woods that lined the road for miles. Then we followed two dusty ruts, nearly overgrown, for miles more. The cabin was one big room with bunk beds, an ice box, and a big iron stove. Mom stayed there to clean things up while you took me on a long walk into the woods, pointing out the rabbit scat and the poison ivy, telling me how you would sit in the snow there for hours watching for a buck to come along. It was all so green, and the trees were thick and towered to the sky. We listened to them whispering to each other, and to the birds and chattering squirrels. I had no idea how to get back to the cabin. But I was never afraid. Because you were there. And you were strong and brave and a hunter, and you knew everything. I loved you then for taking me to this secret, magical place. I love you now, even though you are gone. And often, when I walk in the deep woods, I feel you beside me, and I am never afraid.
The wild grass conforms to no law except the law of the dance. It surrenders authority to nothing but joy, to the Great Yes of being, and to that it bows knowing that it governs its creations with knowledge and love, and is beneficent in all its ways.
It’s my favorite summer sitting place with its canopy of spruce boughs and the endless green. On days like today, when a breeze whispers through, all the trees waltz to its song. In the morning, the air is filled with bird song. At night, fireflies sparkle, their lights floating all the way up to the tops of the trees and beyond until they look like shooting stars.
Memories float up from the weathered pine floor, stored over thirty-some years, a parade of dear ones, conversations, confessions, laughter, comfortable stretches of silence, dogs, cats, once, a painted turtle. Mostly it’s just me, my thoughts adrift in the spaciousness, the Yes of it, wrapped in sweet contentment, drinking its deep joy.
At the edge of the lake the water iris sings ringed by reeds from which her golden sisters grow. Behind her a deep patch of wild forget-me-nots bob in the afternoon sun, calling her to our attention, as if her beauty could be missed, as if we would not hear her song.
Hot breezes blow, a foretaste of summer. The heat awakens the catalpa’s buds, and suddenly they burst into hundreds of blossoms, white and ruffled, clustered among the tree’s large, heart-shaped leaves. You could imagine they were mounds of snow or ice cream if you were longing for relief from the day’s fiery air. The sight of them is alone enough to cool you. Such is their grace, offering refreshment, just when we need it the most,
I leave the novel I’m reading on the porch where I’ve been enjoying the sun, the wisps of high cloud, a robin’s song, and go inside to answer the phone. It’s Bob, a friend who lives ten miles to the west of me. Get on your bikini, he says. I’m grabbing the boat. You got whole barrels of rain coming your way. No way, I say. But when I go back out, a wall of clouds thicker than tar is racing in from the west, gobbling up the sky as it goes. The birds are wild with warnings. I grab my book and things that might fly away—the tablecloth, the potted plant, the plastic chairs—and run inside, beating the downpour by seconds. I put the plant in its accustomed spot and watch the scene melt through my rain-pelted window. Who needs a novel when the world itself offers such tumultuous drama!
No matter what you imagine awaits you around the next bend, no matter the clues or reasons or signs, you never know. The river always has its surprises, twists and turns being part of its nature. Consider it part of the adventure. The best that any of us can do is savor the calm when it blesses us keeping our paddles at the ready. The next set of rapids could lurk just around the curve. But be assured, all our best wishes eventually come true, just rarely in the shapes and or at the times we, with our limited vision, had dreamed.