That bare trees erupt with bursting buds simply because, so they tell us, the planet’s axis has tipped toward the sun, is one wonder. A larger one, it seems to me, is that we can walk past, hardly noticing, if at all. What a world, where miracles occur in such profusion that we barely give them a ho-hum!
When I was walking in the park last week, I happened across a young pine who looked so much like my dear old friend, Little Pine, that for a minute I thought I’d been transported back in time. That’s her, the new one, in the photo below. Today, the universe nudged me toward a file where I found, to my surprise, the original Little Pine story from March of 2010. What better love letter, I thought, could I send you today than to blend these two finds together and send them with a smile.
The little pine grew surrounded by mighty elders whose tops brushed the sky and whose branches were homes for squirrels and birds and bugs of every description. She loved the way the wind made music in their boughs, and showered their red needles at her feet. She loved the sparkling fireflies that came in summer to dance from the ground to the stars above.
But most of all, she loved the quiet nights when the elders would whisper the fantastic tales of The World Beyond that they learned from the visiting birds.
Much of it was beyond the understanding of the little pine, and she had no way of knowing whether the stories were make-believe or real. But they were grand stories either way, and as the seasons passed and her understanding grew, the elders were able to explain what the fables meant, and stories took on great beauty and increasing meaning.
The stories the wrens told differed somewhat from the ones the robins told, and theirs differed from the owls’ version in many details. But one year a great eagle had built its nest in the top-most branches of an elder who dwelt high up the distant slope, and it wove the bits of the birds’ stories into one magnificent piece.
Counsels of elders had studied the eagle’s tale through the ages, and passed it down as clearly as they could to the all the trees in the forest.
Just as each tree was a distinctive expression of life, they said, with its own sap and wood, its unique pattern of bark, needles and branches, all together the pines and their leafy cousins were part of a larger community of life known as a forest. And beyond the forest lay other communities, known as plains and mountains and deserts and seas. And altogether, they made up a whole called a planet, and her cousin was the moon, and her mate the sun.
That was all the eagle knew for certain, from its travels. But it believed, the elders said, that the sun and moon and planet were part of yet another whole that was part of another and so on, forever. And its nature was joy, for the space that bound it all together was made of love so vast and deep and all pervasive, that even the tiniest ant who crawled across the pine’s needles felt its power. And every bit of it mattered and was needed to fully express love’s song.
That, the elders told the young pine, was the importance of being exactly who she was. She was needed for love to express exactly the note of joy that she embodied, and in all of creation, she alone could sing it.
Mimicking nothing, following nothing but its own inner song, trusting that being is its own reward, reaching only toward fulfillment of this moment’s highest possibility, it unfolds in exquisite perfection.
From the west, low peals of thunder announce the coming rain, its scent perfuming the air that wafts across the spring-green fields. At their edges, maples lift red buds skyward like children sticking their tongues out to catch the rain’s first drops as they fall. You can feel the wanting and waiting of it, of its joyous anticipation, and hear it breathe in whispered song, “We’re alive. We’re alive. We’re alive, my dear. It’s spring, and we are alive.”
The Yes, whose merest spark of thought creates whole worlds within worlds, whose living laughter flows endlessly between and around and within them, whose joy knows no bounds, whose life force flows in our blood, whose light illumines our souls— that Yes—is alive here, right in the midst of this moment in Spring.
I can’t, of course, put the whole experience into today’s one bottle. The temperature and moisture of the air alone would take up probably a third of it and there’s still the lake and pines and sky. The best I can do is tuck in a couple glimpses. So that’s what I do. It takes more than the hour I thought I’d spend when the whole thing began. But every minute of it is rich, given that it’s a gift of love.
I leave it in the hands of the universe to get it to its final destination, to those who need exactly what it brings. My only job is to make sure I send something, that I choose what to enclose in the love note each day. To be honest, I’m not even sure I’m really the one who does the choosing. It feels more like listening for a hunch sometimes and going with that.
I like hunches. I like their spontaneity. They’re like a small bell ringing, right over there in the clearing, or like a kid tugging at your shirt tail. It’s easy to disregard them, to brush them off. It took me years to learn that hunches almost always take me to the exactly right place. Now I turn where they direct with a kind of eager anticipation to see how things will turn out.
Sometimes you have to make a leap of faith in order to follow a hunch. It can feel scary to do something you’ve never done before, to take a turn down an unfamiliar road. But if you have no faith, you miss out on a lot of life’s fun and adventure, to say the least.
Besides, the same agency that sends out the hunches sends out alarms if the risk is something you need to weigh with a measure of care. Over time you learn what level of risk you’re willing and confident enough to take. It’s a kind of skill you develop with experience.
When I’m out taking photos, for instance, I get a hunch that if I stood over that way about ten feet, the angle would be fabulous. But then an alarm goes off and cautions me to note the slippery mud on the rocks and to test their stability as I make my way along.
From a certain point of view, all of life is a risk/reward proposition. You take the risk of drawing your first breath, letting out your first scream, and you’re on your way. Everything from there on is a reward, even if it takes you a few lifetimes to see how that can be. It’s all a gift. It’s all benevolent in the long run. Even the parts that hurt.
Next Saturday, good Lord willin’ and the creek don’t rise, I’ll complete my 100 day challenge. It’s been interesting to see how it’s evolved. It’s an established habit for me now, finding something to send out, in love, every day. I think I’m just getting started.
And next Sunday, you’ll have another letter from me, sharing whatever observations my hunches lead me to find.
Okay, little lamb. You did it. Laying there in the new grass, your baby hooves tucked up, your ears poked out, your face wearing that little lamb smile, you stole my heart. My eyes send you pets as warm as this new spring sunshine, and I sing you welcome, little one. Oh, baby! Your sweetness stole heart.
Mere whim sent me down the road that passed the lake I had forgotten, tucked as it is between farms, its smooth complementing their rugged earthy rows, but both rolling, each in its own way. And both will soon wear fresh green. Even now you can feel it rising from somewhere powerful and deep, a green known by fishes and worms and reeds. Come back next week, something whispers inside me, and see what’s happened. You might find yourself amazed.
Just when you thought she was gone for good, winter turns, rushes up to you laughing, kissing you right on the mouth. “Just in case,” she says, sprinkling her dazzles all over the hillside and trees, “you haven’t had enough.” And then she’s off again, this time for good. Maybe. But maybe she’ll come just once more, bringing more of her magical kisses,