Day 63 – The Balance Point

Snow melts on the mossy log
telling the tale:

The dance of winter’s yin and yang
is at its balance point.
Neither holds sway.
Things can tip either way
and will, for days.
Spring’s advance
makes fools of us all.

Day 62 – Star Journey

If I could dance my way
to the heart of sun,
or step through a portal
that led to any star,
I imagine the light that I’d see
would be a play of hues like these
that color the sky tonight.

I imagine I would travel
on music played by artisans
who drew their sounds
from the soul songs of angels.

Glistening crystals
that look like the year’s first snow
would shimmer all around me
sounding their silvery chimes.

I would find myself enveloped
in tenderness unlike any
that I had ever dreamed or known.

And I would finally understand
what my innermost heart
had always known to be true:
Each of us is real, and known,
and dearly, deeply loved.

Even me.
Even me.

Day 61 – At the Feet of Trees

What lured me up the hillside was the splash of green I spotted from my kitchen window. It was right at the base of the maple where I remembered seeing tall spikes of green first thing last spring. Wiggling with happy anticipation, I pulled on my boots, zipped up my jacket and headed out.

“March Fool!” a knot of little kids laughed from a corner of my mind as I saw that the green I had spotted wasn’t fresh sprouts at all, just ferns left over from last year.

“No!” I shout at the taunting voices. “It’s April Fool, not March. Go home.” They turned and faded into the mental mist, still giggling that I was fooled.

“Even so,” I said, turning to the fern. “You’re quite lovely.” It agreed that I could take its photo in honor of its grace. I thanked it and bid it fare well.

I looked up the hill to choose a path for my climb. A cat seemed to be trapped in the bark of the maple’s trunk there before me. Or was it an owl? You decide.

The stump to the east looked like a horse’s head with its deep brown eye and the green foam around its mouth, proof that it breathed deeply before it finally fell.

And right here at my feet, the roots of a towering giant are decorated with bouquets of seeds and twigs, fallen leaves and lingering ferns, as if others had come before me, leaving gifts on its moss-painted toes.

Then, high above me, a crow’s call cut the air. Looking up, I saw the silhouette of the trees waltzing in the breeze. For a minute or two, I stood at their feet waltzing with them. Then I climbed back down, heading home, glad to have been a March fool.

Day 60 – Trees Singing Sky

Oh, sky, who drenched us in sunlight
for nearly a week of days, whose stars
glittered at night in your velvet deep,
we thank you. And we watch in thanks
as you pull in your soft clouds now
to let your nectar fall on all the hidden flowers
who grow beneath Earth’s soil, dreaming,
as do we, of the coming spring.

Day 59 – Waiting for Robins

If you know how to listen to trees, you can tell. They might look as if they’re just standing there, not a thought passing between them. But that’s not true.

They’re thinking all right. One thought. Every one of them: “Are they here yet? Have you seen one? Have you heard one sing?”

The tension of their anticipation fills the air. Any day now, any moment, it will happen. Suddenly they will telegraph to each other, “Yes! They’re here! They’re here!”

And even if it snows again, no one will care. When the robins come, spring can’t be far behind.

Cruising Down the River

I saw a poster this week that pictured a guy standing in a field with the outline of a city in the distance. “The world you grew up in,” it said, “doesn’t exist any more.”

“You got that right!” I said right out loud as I read those words. Heck, the worlds we lived in three weeks ago have vanished, never mind the worlds of our childhood. And you know what? As much as we might want them to, they’re never coming back.

You know what else? We get to take all the good parts of our former worlds with us, and all the things we learned from the parts that weren’t so good. They’re all right here, inside us, and nothing and no one can take them away. Every experience we’ve ever had is an integral part of who we are now.

I heard a story once where a little girl asked her grandmother, “Grandma, is everybody like this?”
“Like what?” asked the grandmother.
“Bigger on the inside than on the outside,” the little girl said.

That’s a pretty cool thing for a little kid to realize. Inside, we’re as big as all our memories and imaginings put together. All the people who have touched our lives are there, all the places we’ve been, all the things we’ve done, all the dreams we’ve dreamed.

And it took every one of those things to bring us exactly to where we are now, cruising down time’s river, seeing the sights, planning what we’ll make and do when we get to the next shore.

We can draw on all that we are to choose how we want to be as we go into the river’s next bend. We can see the parts that didn’t serve us, or others, well and drop them in the waters. We can let the parts that brought us joy and love and satisfaction serve as our compass when the river offers us choices between this way or that.

We can remind ourselves to be calm when the waters get rough, knowing we’ve come through storms before. We know how to keep faith when darkness falls, knowing that light will follow.

There’s no reason to fear that we might be lost, because we’re always right here, breathing in the ever-changing now as it slides by.

Yesterdays go where yesterdays go, and we keep them inside us forever.

So be at peace. Be here. And let yourself appreciate the ride

Warmly,
Susan

Day 58 – Walking Among the Fallen Ones

The woods atop the south hill look bleached in the early morning light. The ground, powdered with snow, is littered with fallen trunks and limbs. Some seasons are hard.

Nevertheless, the atmosphere shimmers with the freshness of a new day, just emerging from the night and brimming with countless possibilities. Beneath the snow, the earth hides quickening seeds.

I slowly work my way to the hill’s crest, pausing to listen to the silence, to watch a small bird flutter among the trees’ subtly budding twigs. Beneath my boots damp leaves press into the earth.

The snow sparkles on the logs and branches like a blessing as I step so carefully between them. I count it a privilege to be here. This, this is sacred ground.

Day 57 – Why I Love Cows

I remember it well. It was a cold and dreary day, much like today, one of those late February days when you think winter is going to go on forever. I was driving down country roads returning home from a friend’s house when I saw them, stoically braving the snow as they pushed their square faces through its powder in search of a mouthful of grass.

I stopped beside them and rolled down my window. “Only a few more weeks,” i shouted to them through the frosty air. “The groundhog said so.”

That’s when the one nearest me turned and looked me right in the eyes. From somewhere deep inside her she summoned a deep breath and with great clouds of steam pouring from her nostrils she bellowed, clear as day, “Boooooooo!”

“My sentiments exactly,” I told her. And I rolled up my window and drove on.

Day 56 – The First Green

Look here. Don’t just say “mud” and walk away. Look. Look closer.

See? The first blades of grass are pushing their way up into the light.

Imagine the weight of the saturated soil, the way they have to find a route past the bodies of drenched leaves, past sticks and pebbles.

All birth is a struggle. If you want to be here, you have to work for it. You have to prove your toughness, your determination.

But, oh! The greeting of the light! The touch of air and the music that rides it! The surge of freedom as you burst into the wonder of this world!

What a mystery you have entered! What a great unknown! And yet, how it calls. How every cell of your being cries, “Push on! Push on!”

Day 55 – A Bit of a Blush

It wasn’t much, as sunsets go.
Yet how eagerly my eyes flew
to the blushing pink and coral,
rare colors in this season
of brown woods and fading snow.
I held them to my heart and dreamed
of summer roses draped in tender hues.

Only after I had drunk my fill did I notice
the tracks in the snow on the hill
an X and an O, made by someone at play
and left as a kiss and hug because snow, too,
is loved in someone’s heart.