Except for the strength of it, I suppose you could call it an impulse, this sudden sense that I must go now and walk among trees. Given the gloom of the day and the late afternoon hour, this tug surprised me. But here I was, pulling on my boots, grabbing my gloves, detecting a sense of purpose, a need to waste no time. Then I am plowing through a carpet of oak leaves, transfixed by the way the light shimmers through the cold, barely visible mist, intensifying somehow the textures of the skins of the trees, of the earth and the ice-glazed lake, how it amplifies their winter hues. This was my wordless lesson, this offering of beauty, a gift of love to celebrate this new year’s very first day.
Well, first and foremost, let’s share a New Year’s toast: “May this brand new year be the best one yet, for each and every one of us!” Happy New Year to you, from my heart.
I got a wonderful present this week from a Facebook friend, Nanda Jurela, who shares her insightful wisdom on her blog. The gift was what she called an “enlightening motto” that she had heard a few years ago. It says, “You can’t embrace what is trying to hug you while holding onto yesterday’s junk.”
I’m adopting that one myself, thank you, Nanda.
Imagine waking up every day of the new year wondering what hugs will come hoping for your embrace! They could come dressed up as anything. They could be any color, or shape, or size. The only thing they all have in common is that they’re filled with goodness and a very particular fondness for you.
Personally, I’m going to make a mini-poster to hang on my bedroom wall where I’ll see it as I step out into the day: “You can’t embrace what is trying to hug you while holding onto yesterday’s junk.” I suspect its junk is all that stands between us and genuine joy. I’ll remind myself, too, that even one minute ago can be “so yesterday.”
I’ll be sharing my thoughts about “genuine joy” over the coming weeks, and about things that serve to invite more of it into our lives. What better way to begin than to practice noticing life’s little reminders that it’s on your side and just waiting for you to take its assurance that you are so dearly loved–even when you’re a mess!
The hugs are always there, you know. Go around expecting them to pop into your world at any moment. Chances are, if you think about them during the day it’s because one is trying to get your attention. And all you have to do to grab it is to let go of yesterday’s junk!
It might come as a thought, as a hope, as a new possibility. It might fall across your path as something you hear or read or see in the sky. It might come as a silver lining. A person could bring it, or the mail, or an elephant. Hugs can wear any costume you can imagine, and a bunch of them that you can’t. But every hug life gives you—never, ever forget—comes especially for you and is exactly what you need. So do remember to say thanks. Then be on the lookout for the next one. And the next. And the next.
May you go through the year with open eyes. empty arms, and a peaceful heart.
Look how they stand, these two, strong and holding their limbs high as if in grateful praise, and this despite fate’s assaults, despite the storms they weathered so patiently, so sure. See how they face the light, and how, beside them, their companions dance and raise their boughs in song. Perhaps they know this day marks a wondrous turning into some newborn unknown. And look how strong and glad they stand to greet it!
Of course you can’t walk among trees and not look up. To miss those great limbs with their thin twigs tracing calligraphy against the sky would be a sin. And besides, sometimes, the sight of their crowns is enough to take your breath away.
I confess. In summer I give them little more than a passing glance, maybe a little smile or a touch now and then. But winter has come, and they call me, the skins of these trees. Now I stare in awe at their colors, at the textures and layers and designs, each unique, each similar to the others in its family. I could learn all their names. But now I want nothing more than to see, to get lost in the wonder, to find myself moist-eyed as I drink in this song.
To see this familiar place with fresh eyes was a gift. I felt as if I had never walked these grounds before and now how beautiful it all was at high noon on a winter day with a cloud-veiled sun in the sky. And how its quiet sang!
What called me was the long swath of dried goldenrod, looking like a troop of old men telling tales amongst themselves as they kept watch over this sacred land. I remember seeing them here in their youth, all green seed and golden flowers. How tall they still stand now, how glorious the way the light touches their crowns.
The course description was accurate. The lessons are subtle and it will take time to understand all that is before you, how to unravel the language, to detect the rhythm and speed. And after you have got that far you can let it sink deeper, holding your attention on it, naming nothing, just giving it your whole self until, with a bright spark, it touches the edges of your understanding, pushing up the corners of your mouth.
It will be like this now. Consider it a class in neutrals and form. The lessons are subtle and ask for deep listening and observation. Our kind, you may have noticed, seems not to do that well. Most can’t bother. Some persevere. And it is for them that the season comes, and lingers, whispering its matchless secrets, hour after hour.
I’ve been gathering feathers for years now. I keep these few in the miniature vases of which I am so fond on the sill of the window where I work in winter. This has been their appointed spot for a long while. Normally, my eyes focus beyond them at the scene behind the spruce’s boughs or at the boughs themselves where sometimes a bird will light for a moment. But the cold of the day has glazed the window with sheets of ice and a garland of frost, directing my gaze at the feathers, and I think how I love them and the birds who gave them to me and the images of birds they evoke in my mind, and the beautiful feeling of freedom.
There’s something daunting about settling in at my keyboard to share some moments with you and then realizing, as I begin to type the date, that it’s Christmas!
I’m stunned. Do I need to be especially profound or something? Oh my! What does all of this mean?
I sit perfectly still, unable to form a single thought. My awareness is wholly caught up in the present, in the data my senses convey–the warmth of the room, the lamp’s golden light, the soft holiday jazz drifting through the air. From somewhere near the center of me, a stream of affection spirals into my awareness carrying images of dear ones, far and near. And the magic of the day wraps around me and sinks into me in glistening whispers of peace.
I like what I wrote about it yesterday, this most amazing moment in time: Its light touches us. Now each of us gets to decide how we’ll respond. “Who do you want to be in the light of this new day?” What a delicious question for morning to bring! It’s among her best, I’d say. “What will you do in this new day’s light?” What a gift!
I hope you know that I’m wishing you the very best as the year draws quickly to a close. I’m looking forward to traversing the coming days with you. Great challenges lie ahead. What a privilege to live in such momentous times!
I won’t keep you. I just wanted to send a Christmas hug, and to share a quote about the holiday from Mother Teresa that nicely sums things up for me as well. “It’s Christmas,” she wrote, “any time that you let God love others through you.”
To those of you who celebrate it, Merry Christmas. And to everyone, wishes for peace and joy.
